Dang it! I fell off the wagon :/ But Thank you Maryann for keepin me accountable! I have no good excuse as to why I haven't kept up - so here's a much needed reflection time with God!
PRAYER: A.C.T.S.
.adoration.
So i was just talking with a friend, Elise, a bit ago, about, well, hair. LoL which then got my mind thinking, "Wow that truley is amazing that God came up with and made such fine detail in all of us as different types of hair." Elise then proceeded to say, "...or eye color or freckles or fingernail shapes..." It's so true! I am just in awe of how he works and i just can't get enough of the fact that God, it seems, had fun with these details. It makes God so much more, relatable, i guess. I can just see Him smiling as he is making us in the womb, thouroughly enjoying the very fine details he puts us together in. Oh man, I wish i could just see you God, meet you face to face. You seem like such a gentle, wise, loving God - which leads to my next point (which I'm just going to go ahead into instead of finishing the prayer....)
I REALLY don't know God!! we were talking in LIFT last night about spending time with our creator and "being holy as he is holy". We talked about how we had this excitement and burst of energy to get to know more about God when we first became saved and now, I am saying to God, "You >seem< gentle, wise, and loving." instead of KNOWING it and PROCLAIMING it! Dang it! How the deceiver has veered me off path, and I just followed. I need to put this down in writing so I don't forget. Sarah B. mentioned that our relationship with God is just that, a relationship. just like we have with our friends or spouses - and we find things to do together that we like, otherwise, we wouldn't do them together because they'd be no fun LoL so why am I doing things that aren't what me and God like to do together? i realize there is some committment to my relationship with God, as well as my spouse and friends, but I never thought of my time spent with God as well, fun! So I'm thinking of things to do with God that aren't boring to me, like opening my Bible app each time I open my Facebook app, or blogging my thoughts down, or praying with others. this list needs to grow and expand and get much more creative. So keep me accountable readers (for now that's just you Maryann) to keep my relationship with God fun!
Friday, March 18, 2011
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Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Growing
I got a new Bible a few days ago! I'm so excited! It's a NLT study Bible. My first study Bible. I look forward to transferring all my notes from my tiny pink Bible into this new one.
Ok, so today's verse to study will be......Hebrew 12 (it was the first thing that caught my eye in my new Bible) - but first prayer!
PRAYER: A.C.T.S.
.adoration.
Jesus, I love that song, "The Face of Love". The words really make me think and just get to me. They make me think of you and it brings me back to show me what love really truly is-You. i have really enjoyed learning so much about you and how the words and meanings you created are so pure and so different from the world. I love learning these new, well actually original, definitions of words i thought i knew like love. I'm so excited to share this knowledge and gift you've given me to Russell.
.confession.
This is hard, I have to admit :/ but it's good cuz I need to come to the reality I sin EVERYDAY! so i should always have something to confess here that needs to be worked on. I guess for today I need to confess that I really have a problem spending money. Not necessarilly on material things (which I do do) but more so on spending money on to go out to eat with friends and family. quality time is one of my biggest love languages and I cherish any moment I get to spend time with friends or family. So when a lunch date is mentioned or I am invited it feels worth it to me to spend the money for the outcome i get of bonding with friends and family. Even though I feel God has really blessed me and Ryan monetarily lately, I do feel like i am out of control on the spending, especially when I do it without asking Ryan....I feel soo bad. Ryan trusts me so much and I am betraying that. Lord, I want to make sure this section is never just a confession but a repentance too. i pray Holy Spirit that you would help me with this, thank you.
.thanksgiving.
Lord, I thank you that you have really changed my heart a lot in the past years that I've known you. I am so happy I have realized I can still thank you even when I'm throwing up or when you tell me I need to give up my ipod. I'm happy to becoming more like you. I pray Lord I never lose the truth that I would never be this way without you. I pray for reminders like the notes you showed me awhile back that I wrote to Ryan in high school with all that awful language and sexual references. (gosh, i'm so scared Russell will be this way when he's a teenager-Father, i pray Russell could be the first generation in our new Christian family that would follow you throughout his adolescense and not go through that stuff)
.supplication.
what i said in adoration, confession and thanksgiving
MEDITATION: S.O.A.P.
.scripture.
before i put the scripture I just had to share something Pastor Jim said tonight that I really liked. He said that if there is not some sort of warfare against the enemy in our daily walk with God (whether it be battling the thoughts in our mind or being on our guard against a tough questioning person) then we are not putting up a fight. I think that can relate to me right now with my discipline in dedicating myself to the Word and realy prayer. So here is my fight I putting up, staying disciplined to doing my devotional on here. and thank you Jesus for using Maryann to have found my blog to help keep me accountable to keeping up with this blog!
ok so the scripture! Hebrews 12:1-2
.observation.
i really liked verse 2 that says, "do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith." It is interesting to me because part of me understands it and part of me doesn't. The part I understand i that Jesus is definitely the initiator of our faith and growth, because i've experienced it in my own life. But I don't quite understand how He perfects our faith. i guess because He allows the situations that will make us think or cling to Him. it's all kind of a mystery how God works but I trust Him and know He's real.
.application.
it seems like I can apply this to the reason why I've started this blog. God gave me the tools to do this and from there I am working on building my relationship with Him and in turn my faith as well. But it's all thanks to Him, I just need to constantly keep looking back to Him "keeping my eyes on Jesus".
.prayer.
Jesus, I love the feeling I get collectiong more of what I've learned about you in my brain. I love that saying I've heard before that when we become your children our DNA starts to change so that we resemble you more in our actions and speech. I want to keep growing - I'm addicted to it! I know there is some tough roads ahead and don't know exactly what that means but I know it's been great so far and I'm happy to be where i'm am in comparisson to where I was and want to keep seeing how you change me! Not to feel good about myself but because it it soo cool to see my progression because I see you soo much! Nothing else can explain why I would change, especially continually.
Ok, so today's verse to study will be......Hebrew 12 (it was the first thing that caught my eye in my new Bible) - but first prayer!
PRAYER: A.C.T.S.
.adoration.
Jesus, I love that song, "The Face of Love". The words really make me think and just get to me. They make me think of you and it brings me back to show me what love really truly is-You. i have really enjoyed learning so much about you and how the words and meanings you created are so pure and so different from the world. I love learning these new, well actually original, definitions of words i thought i knew like love. I'm so excited to share this knowledge and gift you've given me to Russell.
.confession.
This is hard, I have to admit :/ but it's good cuz I need to come to the reality I sin EVERYDAY! so i should always have something to confess here that needs to be worked on. I guess for today I need to confess that I really have a problem spending money. Not necessarilly on material things (which I do do) but more so on spending money on to go out to eat with friends and family. quality time is one of my biggest love languages and I cherish any moment I get to spend time with friends or family. So when a lunch date is mentioned or I am invited it feels worth it to me to spend the money for the outcome i get of bonding with friends and family. Even though I feel God has really blessed me and Ryan monetarily lately, I do feel like i am out of control on the spending, especially when I do it without asking Ryan....I feel soo bad. Ryan trusts me so much and I am betraying that. Lord, I want to make sure this section is never just a confession but a repentance too. i pray Holy Spirit that you would help me with this, thank you.
.thanksgiving.
Lord, I thank you that you have really changed my heart a lot in the past years that I've known you. I am so happy I have realized I can still thank you even when I'm throwing up or when you tell me I need to give up my ipod. I'm happy to becoming more like you. I pray Lord I never lose the truth that I would never be this way without you. I pray for reminders like the notes you showed me awhile back that I wrote to Ryan in high school with all that awful language and sexual references. (gosh, i'm so scared Russell will be this way when he's a teenager-Father, i pray Russell could be the first generation in our new Christian family that would follow you throughout his adolescense and not go through that stuff)
.supplication.
what i said in adoration, confession and thanksgiving
MEDITATION: S.O.A.P.
.scripture.
before i put the scripture I just had to share something Pastor Jim said tonight that I really liked. He said that if there is not some sort of warfare against the enemy in our daily walk with God (whether it be battling the thoughts in our mind or being on our guard against a tough questioning person) then we are not putting up a fight. I think that can relate to me right now with my discipline in dedicating myself to the Word and realy prayer. So here is my fight I putting up, staying disciplined to doing my devotional on here. and thank you Jesus for using Maryann to have found my blog to help keep me accountable to keeping up with this blog!
ok so the scripture! Hebrews 12:1-2
.observation.
i really liked verse 2 that says, "do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith." It is interesting to me because part of me understands it and part of me doesn't. The part I understand i that Jesus is definitely the initiator of our faith and growth, because i've experienced it in my own life. But I don't quite understand how He perfects our faith. i guess because He allows the situations that will make us think or cling to Him. it's all kind of a mystery how God works but I trust Him and know He's real.
.application.
it seems like I can apply this to the reason why I've started this blog. God gave me the tools to do this and from there I am working on building my relationship with Him and in turn my faith as well. But it's all thanks to Him, I just need to constantly keep looking back to Him "keeping my eyes on Jesus".
.prayer.
Jesus, I love the feeling I get collectiong more of what I've learned about you in my brain. I love that saying I've heard before that when we become your children our DNA starts to change so that we resemble you more in our actions and speech. I want to keep growing - I'm addicted to it! I know there is some tough roads ahead and don't know exactly what that means but I know it's been great so far and I'm happy to be where i'm am in comparisson to where I was and want to keep seeing how you change me! Not to feel good about myself but because it it soo cool to see my progression because I see you soo much! Nothing else can explain why I would change, especially continually.
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